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Reflections Post Impeachment

I've been thinking above Mitt Romney since he decided to vote Trump guilty under one article of impeachment this past week... Being the one opposing voice in his party.  I  voted for Romney back in 2012 as sort of a rebellion against partisanship.  I voted a moderate Republican for president and Democrats for all other offices. I recognized that he actually cared about Healthcare and was campaigning to the majority of his party to separate himself from the creation of the Affordable Care Act. I thought in reality, he had a good heart and made choices through his empathy for others. I was also dealing with conflicts in my faith and issues such as abortion, etc... Sometimes, faith and politics don't always congeal on every single issue many people may feel conflicted.  (I'm a Pope Francis person... I would like to think of myself as leading first with compassion.) At the time, I had been in graduate school and getting free tuition for being a graduate assistant and was

Pushing the Limits

This past month has been all about pushing the limits of comfort for me.  From actually learning and understanding statisical analysis (so I think) to being scrubbed by a total stranger at a bathhouse, and most recently attending a drag show on campus with my fellow Intro to Counseling and Psychotherapy classmates.    - note I guess I forgot to finish and publish this back in spring 2012... Funny!

Living in Joy

I attended the Celebration of Life service of an older lady neighbor who I have known for several years now this past weekend. One child ago, she saw me walking with my infant and invited me inside to chat. (She was often outside working in her yard and waving at those passing by.) I came inside and immediately felt comfortable and welcomed. We talked about life, and she shared pictures of her family. She had a large family of six children (I believe). She was open about the current battle she was having with leukemia.  She was more sad about the new boundaries she was under than fearful of the disease. After talking for some time, she shared with me that she had lost her husband to suicide when her children were fairly young. I was surprised. How had this lady gone on and remained one of the most cheerful and grateful women I had ever observed and known?  Her perspective on life was to find joy through hard moments, to appreciate those she cared most about, and to live for t

United, Divided, Neutral?

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Over the last several years my  ideologies  have morphed and become more of my own.  I won't go as far as saying that all of my ideals are concrete or set in stone, but I feel better about who I am more than ever.  I actually like me.  I guess the scariest thing about holding opinions is voicing them and then facing scrutiny and sometimes even feeling alone in your ideology.  I am never quite able to be completely on one end of the spectrum or the other.  I suppose the only type of radical I want to be is a radical Christian.   I am feeling the pains of being a societal outlier (a point in a sample widely separated from the main cluster of points in the sample).  Funny, that term really seemed to speak to me after taking my Research Methods course last spring.  :) But of course, my "normal" is perfectly "normal."  My belief system is firmly set on solid ground and gosh darn it; I am right about most things.  lol.  (Not really.) Well, I been thinking that m

The Big Chill

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http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=O19k-YtwXTg I recently became a member of the Pittsburg Public Library during my short in term of no school.  I thought it might be a good way to stay connected with people outside my “school world,” and I am always attracted to old buildings of character… especially ones that I can enter for free and lounge about as if I’ve paid my part in its maintenance; I guess I have if you consider city taxes/fees.  Lol. Also, I’ve found it to be an economical way to get entertainment.  I was rifling through their slim movie selection when I found the 1983 film, The Big Chill .  Looking at the cover, I thought that perhaps I could relate.  College friends getting back together for a weekend… reminiscing.  I could see myself a bit in the character of Meg Jones- single, grown up and the only women in her group of friends who has yet to find a match (have children) and is sensing her biological clock ticking.  I don’t think my part

"To Be Young (is to be sad, is to be high)"

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http://youtu.be/I_CbxZRW9Zw I much prefer the joyfully sad bluegrass version of David Rawlings (w/ Gillian Welch) as opposed to the bluesy downtrodden sound of Ryan Adams’ version of "To Be Young (is to be sad, is to be high)"; though, I love Ryan Adams. There is something about bluegrass that makes me want to dance through hard times. There are “Greats” in music. People who are able to weave together verse with melody and tell songs as stories. I believe we all cling to and are comforted by lyrics that speak our story or a story from our past. Thank you to my sister, Meredith, for introducing me to many of my music “Greats.” Those people who often sing my song. Gillian Welch & David Rawlings, Ryan Adams, Old Crow Medicine Show, Neko Case… Also, I’m glad to have found my “Golden Greats” Emmylou Harris, Dolly Parton, Neil Young, Yusuf Islam (Cat Stevens), John Lennon, Paul McCartney, Bob Dylan, (though he should stick to song writing) and many more… Now

Trusting God

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Proverbs 3:5 NIV Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. It is funny how panicked a person can become when he/she feels out of control. Since I value truth and transparency, I want to admit that I often feel out of control. I’ve been thinking today about what I have “planned” for my life. I have come to know that my plan is not always God’s plan. I had the perfect, cookie-cutter idea as to what my life would look like at this point. Some of my ideas have come to pass but really the major things in my life really don’t match the picture I had for myself. I think God wants more for me than what I want for myself, though at times I can ask the Lord- “Why not me?” Slowly, I am being molded into who he desires me to be. It is not instant. It is not easy. It usually is not comfortable. When I do decide to trust in the Lord and not in myself, I feel the peace of the Lord and am encouraged to keep moving forward in His plan rather than my